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Zahir said, ‘I am not hurt.’

Zahir’s mother said, ‘Who has stitched this wound together?’ Zahir had no recollection of the king or his surgeons, knew nothing  of his wound or of the arrow still lodged between his ribs.

As Zahir grew older, a pain in his ribs grew worse every year. And in his old age, the agony became unbearable. He went to doctors who examined him but could find no sign of injury.

‘This is a mystery to us,’ the doctors declared. They prescribed worthless medicines to combat the pain that he endured day and night.

At last, Zahir  found  a surgeon  who would treat  him.  The surgeon opened  up  Zahir’s flesh and  was amazed to  find  the golden arrow. But as he withdrew the object from Zahir’s body, the old man died, never gazing for a moment on the true source of his sorrows.”

John said, “That your disbelief pains you and that you suffer for it and long to be released from it is sufficient proof. Separation from God has scorched you and you look upon your burned body and ask for proof of the fire.


The faithless man is lost in the desert. Thirst and heat unhinge his mind. He sees nothing but desert, imagines nothing beyond desert, though  in  truth  his very subsistence depends  on  that which he does not see and which he cannot conceive.

‘There is only desert,’ he says, even as he seeks out the sweet fruit of trees from beyond the desert and drinks water from mountains whose peaks he will never glimpse.

And among the teachers and philosophers are those who deny God and who are proud of their knowledge. But their knowledge is like a spider’s web and their pride is the pride of flycatchers.
Their webs, however great, cannot catch a lion. And it does no credit to their knowledge that  they believe, because they have never caught a lion in their webs, that lions do not exist.

Men are wholly blind, yet insist that they perceive the world through  their own eyes. They stumble and  tremble, taking in their hands all manner of objects to determine the truth of them, for they see nothing. Yet by judging the world according to their feeble standards, they are led into the error of disbelief and into the wilds of perdition.

A blind man was offered a drink of the sweetest wine. He drank it and smiled, appreciating its savor. But when offered a second draught, the blind man said, ‘Let me feel the bottle from which you have poured this bounty, that I may know whether it is sweet or sour.’

Such are the minds of men who demand proof of God’s bounty. His bounty alone is His proof, and no other proof can suffice you.

The Sun one day spoke thus to himself, ‘All the worlds cry out, “Why glow so brightly if none can look at you even for a moment?” I glow for my love of mankind.

Every day I look down upon the wide blue earth, upon the seas on which I dance, upon the mountains  that  stretch vainly to reach me, and I see men pray and sacrifice to me.

They know I am their provider. They see me and know that warmth and light and life come from me. What man living in the world could be without knowledge of me? Who could deny me in the face of these binding and conclusive proofs?’

Musing on this, the Sun undertook to examine all mankind in search of one who disbelieved in him. To his surprise, he found such a man immediately, an old man who lived alone in a cave by the sea.

He grew corn and squash to eat and he drew water from a nearby stream and lived his life in isolation from other men. This old man was entirely blind, unable even to perceive shades of light and shadow; his eyes were ruined from birth.

While the old man was tending his little garden, he heard a voice calling out to him. The voice said, ‘I am the Sun, suspended in the heavens above. Look upon me and know me, for I am the giver of all life. All the things on earth I have provided for your sustenance and pleasure. I have given you life also; you owe me belief at least for that.’

The old man  replied, ‘Sun? I have heard  this word before, stranger,  but  have never  comprehended  the  meaning.  People speak to me as though the existence of this sun were miraculously evident in itself.

Well, it is not evident to me. And if you, who speak for this sun, claim to be the giver of my life and the provider of all things on earth, then  I have to respond  that  I lack any evidence to believe you. Describe your nature to me that I may understand you, if indeed there is such a thing as the sun and you are him.’

The Sun said, ‘I should not be put to proof by you, you who are but an insect to me. In any event, I cannot describe myself to you who have never seen with eyes. How would you understand? My words would be meaningless. At least, however, you are capable of feeling my heat, for my fire warms the world. When I am absent, how much colder life becomes.’

The old man said, ‘I have known both heat and cold.’

‘Then you must know that I am the source of heat.’

‘Hardly,’ the old man replied. ‘I feel heat; but I do not pretend to know the source of it. Perhaps the air produces heat. Perhaps the ground sometimes does, for the sand feels hot to me.’

The Sun said, ‘No, I produce it. The tongues of my fire warm you. The rays of my heat touch you, your face, your hands, the ground and the sky.

I embrace the world with the essence of me.’ The old man responded, ‘Then  present yourself to me that I may touch your face. Then I will know and believe.’

‘I am exalted well above your ability to touch me.’

The old man shouted, ‘Ah, you contradict yourself, you liar! If I cannot touch your face, then how do you presume to touch me and, indeed, embrace the world?’

The Sun did not answer this, but chose another argument. ‘Tell me, how do you account for the corn and squash growing in your garden? You must know that they have a source and that they derive from me the ability to grow and prosper for your benefit.’

The old man was adamant in his rejection of the Sun’s claims. ‘I know nothing of the sort. I know that they grow from seeds I carefully plant and by virtue of watering. Water is all they require and, perhaps, heat to warm them.’

The Sun said, ‘Yes, but what is the source of this heat?’

‘I  have told  you, the  ground  or  the  sky perhaps.  I do  not pretend to know exactly. But I suspect it is not the product  of some inscrutable celestial orb. Perhaps these things are derived by accident. Perhaps their existence is fortuitous and arbitrary.’

Hearing this, the Sun grew angry and berated the man. But the old man would listen no more. Although he was convinced that no sun even existed, he finally spoke to the Sun, saying, ‘Assuming that there is a sun that invisibly performs all these miracles, why should I believe that you are him?’

Exasperated, the Sun finally answered, ‘Go then and deny me all the rest of your days. I am exalted well above either your belief or disbelief.’”

Herod said, “But I do not feel his presence nor do I hear his voice.”


John said, “If your hands are soiled with dirt and your master approaches, do you grasp his skirt, or do you first wipe your hands against your own?

An old woman was slowly going blind but, in her vanity, she stubbornly refused to admit it. Every day in the marketplace, she would invariably stumble in the paths of others. But rather than asking their pardon,  she accused them of blindness. When she complained of this to her family, her daughter replied, ‘Which is it, mother? Is all the world losing its sight, while you retain yours? Or is their vision fine and yours at fault?’

One evening, the old woman called for her son to bring her a fresh lantern, for the one by which she was reading was too dim in her eyes. The son did as his mother told him and brought a second lantern.

His mother scolded him, saying, ‘The light of that lantern is also too weak! Fetch me a lantern with a brighter flame.’ The son said, ‘Mother, were I to bring you the very sun in my arms, you would account it insufficient. Do not berate the flame for your incapacity to profit by it. The lantern is not dim, rather it is your vision!’

”Herod considered what John had said to him and, for a number of days, sought to refute him. He said to John, “If I accept your arguments for the existence of god, then I am prepared to judge him according to his deserts. You call him all-powerful and all- good and nothing can withstand him.

Yet if he is all-powerful, then the misery that is in this world is partly his responsibility and he cannot therefore be all-good. And if he is all-good then he cannot  be all-powerful, for he suffers evil to  exist in  the world. Therefore, your god is either capricious and cruel or he is a weakling.”
John replied, “There is evil in the world. 

But even this is a sign of God. Turn away from the sun and the world becomes dark. He permits evil to persist so that we may know ourselves and, on the day we are brought before Him, we will bear ourselves witness and nowhere will we have to turn except to Him.

A blacksmith was working one day on a stubborn piece of metal. The metal refused to yield, and it cried out to the blacksmith, ‘Why are you torturing me?’ It despaired, ‘Why do you burn me? Why do you stretch me out naked on your anvil and strike me with your hammer?’

The blacksmith did not answer the pleading one before him, but continued as before. The metal wailed unceasingly, between pleas and curses, calling out, ‘I cannot bear it! Destroy me!’

Again the blacksmith did not answer, but continued his work until the metal at last began to yield, as it always did, and its shape became appropriate to the end for which he forged it.

After  the  blows ended,  the  blacksmith,  with  loving  care, sharpened the shining blade. He fitted its handle with jewels and rubies of exquisite carving. The scimitar beheld itself and found itself beautiful beyond compare.

The scimitar declared, ‘I should never have cursed you, and for cursing you I deserved to  be cast into  the  fire and  never withdrawn. Yet you made of me, who was once a lump of useless ore, a sword of abiding beauty.

I should have blessed you; I did not understand. Why didn’t you tell me the end to which you worked me? Why didn’t you explain the reason for which you refused to hold back these agonies?’

The blacksmith answered, ‘Had I reasoned with you, you would never  have comprehended.  Your  little mind  understood  only unceasing pain. You could not know that my tyranny was in fact my bounty, and that my cruelty was in truth mercy.

Blandishments would have caused you to resist me more, therefore I offered none. Rare is the occasion when, from the ore, a sword is ready-made. You were insensible metal; now you are the companion  of the king. Go in peace, blessing when once you cursed, knowing when once you were ignorant.’”


Herod said, “You may consider him all-good this way, but you cannot deny that innocent men suffer in abject misery—and all this to no good end!”

John answered, “Even in Hell are the signs of the Lord.

When the brothers  of Joseph, on account  of their pettiness and envy, sold Joseph into slavery to be rid of him, they sought to conceal their crime. Therefore, they took Joseph’s robe, which their father had given him as a token of his love for the boy, and spattered it with goat’s blood.

They brought this back with them from Dothan, where they had forsaken Joseph while pasturing their  father’s flock. They carried it to their  father’s tent,  as a testimony to the lie they told their father, Jacob.

‘Father,’  they  cried,  ‘we  have returned  with  this  remnant of Joseph. While we went racing one another  and left Joseph to care for our things in our absence, a wolf came upon  him and devoured him.’

And in the tent of their father, three of the brothers, Judah, Reuben and Simeon, presented their brother’s robe to Jacob. And when Jacob saw the robe of his favorite son, which was dirty and soaked in blood, he took it in his arms and wept.

Jacob mourned  the loss of his son, and none of his family, neither his wives, nor his daughters, nor yet his sons could console him. The only comfort he took was in Joseph’s blood-spattered robe. Reuben, pained at the sight of his father’s sufferings, said to him, ‘Father, let me take that robe from you, the robe which you gave to him, and I will bury it or burn it.’

Jacob said, ‘No, I will keep it to remember him.’

Reuben said, ‘But father, it reeks with filth and blood. It is unclean.’

Jacob agreed, saying, ‘This is true, but still I scent the sweet fragrance of Joseph on it.’”

John said, “They pretended him dead, but they did not perceive. They fell into despair, not knowing the end to which all things, even despair, are wrought.

The brothers of Joseph returned  from Egypt with grain, but were dejected. When their father, Jacob, met them, he said to them, ‘Why are your faces downcast?’

Levi said, ‘Father, the Egyptian lord who sold us this grain accused us as spies and took your son Simeon and locked him up. The lord asked after you and after Benjamin, saying, “Come back with Benjamin that I may see his face and know you are not liars and spies. If you do this, I will release Simeon.”’

Jacob rent his shirt. He said, ‘I will not let you take Benjamin to this Egyptian lord. Already I have lost Rachel’s first son. Would you have me risk the life of her second?

Where else will I find another remembrance of Joseph in the faces of my sons but in Benjamin, Joseph’s only brother? This Egyptian lord will take Benjamin from me. Already he has stolen Simeon away. I have lost two sons to your keeping. I will not risk more.’

Tears rolled over Jacob’s face and  he wept over the  loss of Simeon, counting him already among the dead. But Jacob took comfort in Benjamin, Joseph’s brother, and said to him, ‘I cannot bear to lose you, for to lose you is death to me. When I lost Joseph I went down into Sheol that very day.’

Now the months passed, and the drought did not end. Jacob said to his sons, ‘Be of some use. Go to Egypt and purchase more grain before we die.’

But his sons said, ‘Father, remember the Egyptian lord. We must take Benjamin with us, or that lord will surely know us and cast us all into prison with Simeon. We will be no use to you then. Let us take Benjamin and we will return with grain.’

Jacob said, ‘How can I trust you a third time with that which you have lost twice before? Were I to do this, you would be right in thinking me mad. But if you do not go, we will starve, and I will lose Benjamin.

And if you go, but without Benjamin, you will be imprisoned and we will starve and I will lose Benjamin. Indeed, I am already in Sheol, bereft of Joseph and of Simeon, of Benjamin and of all my sons. I have lost everything, all my possessions, my wives and my grandchildren. Take Benjamin with you.

And do not think that by losing him you will gain a father, as you thought when you took Joseph from me. No father am I, no son, no brother. But I place my whole trust in God, knowing that even in the dust I will find Him.

And if I have loved any one of you, it is because I have seen in you the signs of God. I seek no other friend than Him, but find Him always in my company.’

Do not grieve in humiliation, for the blessings of the Lord are soon upon  you. And do not rejoice in affluence, for He curses whom He will. But even this serves His purpose, though you do not know. And the tears of Jacob were rewarded and the crimes of Joseph’s brothers were repaid.

When Jacob died, the brothers  of Joseph wrung their hands and  spoke balefully to  one  another: ‘Joseph will hate  us now, remembering the wrong we did him. He has spared us only for our father’s sake.’ They invented a story to trick Joseph.

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