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All the joys and treasures of the world are theirs to enjoy. But pain is the companion  of His lovers. Tears are His apostles. Pain is better than dominion of the world, for the prayers of the sorrowful come from burning hearts.

He hardens your heart and respites you for an allotted time from that  terrible day. But on the Last Day, there is no more respite and you will be called to account for your doings, and the respite you took as a sign that He would not punish you will prove only to have increased you in rebellion. The Praised One revealed: When We let them taste Our mercy after affliction, they contrive against Our signs.



If you renounced  all that  you cherished and  lived in abject misery and suffering, and if you died, not today nor yet tomorrow, but instead a thousand years hence, you would, on the Last Day, account your sufferings to be His sweetest mercy. Submit to Him and your reward resides in your submission.”

Herod  said: “I am asking for a little proof. Have him come down from Heaven. Show me anything. Show me a sign of your god and I will believe and do exactly as I am bidden! Show me a sign that I may be a true lover and fear his anger and seek his pleasure. Bring an angel to your side and let him testify to all that you have said, and I will believe.”

John said, “I can give you no sign. By seeing Him, you would fear Him. Though He should be feared, you would worship Him from fear alone. You would make fear a partner with God, and there is no God but God.”

Herod  said, “This is insane. Give me something other  than excuses. At least show me a vision of that reward he promises his believers. Give me a glimpse of paradise and I will worship him to attain to it.”

John said, “If you had listened to all I have said to you, you would already have glimpsed paradise. I cannot show it to you any more plainly, lest you see it and lust after it as you lust after things of this world.

You would worship Him in hope of attaining to paradise. You would have worshipped paradise and made it a partner with Him. In the court of His Oneness, such worship is no better than apostasy.

Worship Him without fear of Him and without hope of reward. Then you might perform a fitting worship.

Renounce your pride and you will understand that paradise is His strung bow. He draws and the high part becomes low and the low becomes high. Renounce your lusts and you will see that mercy is His curse, deprivation is His blessing. Renounce your riches and you will know that true wealth is poverty in His way.



Worship Him only because you love Him and not for some mean price. Ask for no reward apart from His presence, because He is self-sufficing and nothing can suffice you but Him.

But if you offer service to attain to your ends, whether to avert His anger or to acquire from Him some prize, then you will have never truly served Him and you will feel His anger and you will be deprived of reward.

Caliph Ali decided to test the faith and  virtue of a certain servant named Asad. This servant, who was merely a stable-boy, wished to demonstrate his love of God and his loyalty to Ali in acts of great courage and fearless battle. Every day he sought out the caliph and clung to him and pathetically pleaded with him,

‘Make me a captain of your armies and send me north to fight the Parsis. I will prove my worth in battle!’

One day Ali smiled on him and told him, ‘I will make you a captain and send you at the head of an army to seek out  a rebellious chieftain.’

At these words, Asad beamed with pride. But Ali said to him, ‘I do not want you to do battle. Go to the chieftain Numan and ask him why he has abandoned the faith to which he swore homage in the presence of Ahmad, peace be upon him. Ask him why and deliver his answer to me. Do this thing for me, and I will adopt you as my own son.’

Now when Asad led his army north,  he did not  obey Ali’s instructions, but made war on the chieftain Numan, driving him into the desert and conquering the lands to which he held title. Numan was murdered by his own people. They cared nothing for their chieftain’s resistance to Asad and feared the soldiers of the God in whom Numan’s people still believed.

Asad concluded his war and returned  to Mecca, resplendent on his horse, leading an army of proud  soldiers and a caravan of the richest tribute. The people hailed him as the conqueror of the north, and his soldiers esteemed him as the most blessed of generals. He was crowned with every tribute and honor. But when he went to see the caliph, Ali refused to speak with him.

For three days and three nights he pleaded with Ali’s guards to let him pass and to speak with the caliph. At last Ali relented and Asad was brought before him. Now when Asad saw the caliph, he bowed before that essence of holiness, and said, ‘My lord, I have returned to you with honors and riches that I won for you.’

Ali said, ‘I have no more honors and riches than I had when you were a stable-boy.’

Asad protested, ‘But my lord, I did battle with Numan and his legions and conquered their land. Their people have returned to the faith of God and have paid to your treasuries tribute for the wrong done you by Numan.’

‘Numan did me no wrong. He disbelieved and I sought a reason from him. But his disbelief, indeed the disbelief of all mankind, could have no effect on me, for I am exalted beyond the pettiness of men’s minds.’

Ali continued, ‘I sent you to question Numan and to return to me with his answer; you have failed me in that simple task.’

Asad said, ‘But I have done great things in your name. In your name I have forced the people of Numan to submit. In your name I have exacted a fine tribute from the north.

In your name I have won a dozen battles and killed a hundred  infidels with my own hands. Surely this is more valuable than the excuses of a mere apostate?’

Ali said, ‘You  did not perform these acts for me. I sent you to perform a simple task and you failed me. How can I believe that these far greater tasks, to which you lay eager claim, were for my benefit when that simplest of all duties was beyond your ability? ’

Forget your rewards and obey Him. Your desire for reward is sufficient witness to your rebellion against Him. Seek Him for His sake before and above all else.

Do not loiter in His garden, though there is none so green or beautiful; seek Him out. If you have come to His threshold for the sake of His threshold, then you will be deprived of Him.

After Ahasuerus banned  Vashti from  his  presence  for  her disobedience, he decided to take a new bride. He ordered Hegai, the keeper of his women, to bring his concubines into the palace garden. When they were assembled, Ahasuerus said to them: ‘I have hidden a treasure here. Find it and show it to me and I will marry you and give you possession of that treasure.’

When the concubines heard this, they were filled with excitement  and  searched through  the  garden.  Some of them imagined the prize to be jewelry. Others presumed it to be gold and silver.

Still others believed the prize was Vashti’s own crown which had been taken from her for her disobedience. But Esther, who was the wisest and most beautiful of the women did not move even for a moment. She stood before Ahasuerus as before, smiling at him. He said, ‘Are you going to look for the treasure I have hidden? ’

Esther said, ‘I have found it already.’ Ahasuerus said, ‘Show it to me.’

Esther left the garden and returned with her mirror and held it to her king’s face, her eyes fixed on him. And when she showed him this, he set the royal crown on her head and made her queen instead of Vashti. He said to her, ‘I was a hidden treasure wishing to be known.’”

Herod traded eternity for a single dance. He stumbled over the Joseph of truth  but, like the Midianites, cast him away. Ahmad declared: They hid him as an item of merchandise; but what they did was known to God. And they sold him as worthless  for a few paltry dirham.

For his niece’s performance, Herod bartered his soul. He remembered only himself, and thinking himself alone with his thoughts, he accounted himself blameless.


Before Moses climbed up Mount Nebo, to the peak of Pisgah, he said, “God, forgive me this transgression and the one before it.”

The Israelites heard him and were perplexed by what he had said. They asked him the meaning of his words.

Moses answered, “I ask for God’s forgiveness for breaking faith with Him at the waters of Meribah-Kadesh. And I ask for God’s forgiveness for a worse sin. On the day I murdered the Egyptian, I looked to the left and the right and, believing myself alone, I committed murder.”

The Israelites said, “Surely your Lord has forgiven you. That man was the willing servant of a tyrant and God made you a prophet.”

Moses said, “Let nothing you say touch me! I ask forgiveness for ever having excluded my Lord as witness for all I say and do. I have never been alone, not even for an instant. By believing  no one witnessed the murder,  I became witness against myself for unbelief.

There is nowhere that you may turn your head that He is not before your eyes. You do not see Him because you are in the way. With a single finger you block out the sun from your eye.

When the Angel of God showed paradise to Adam, he warned Adam of that single tree, saying, ‘Do not eat of it. It is the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. A taste of its fruit on the lips of one who knows only good will separate you from Him and this is surely death.’

But Adam did not obey and ate of the tree. The instant he tasted the fruit in his mouth, he became suddenly aware of himself. He said, ‘I must hide from my Lord who will surely punish me.’

The  Angel of God  approached  him,  saying, ‘Why  are  you hiding? ’

Adam said, ‘I  was afraid that  He would punish  me for my disobedience. I am ashamed and have found myself naked before Him. I ate of the fruit forbidden to me and, in eating, I became aware of myself.’


The Angel of God said, ‘Truly, you are dead to Him until you become dead to yourself again. Why did you seek any other than Him?’

Seek truth from no other but Him. In His treasury alone are the treasures of true knowledge. In His palace alone are the comforts of true contentment.

Do not seek an accounting from Him of His doings. He is All- Knowing, All-Wise. Exalted is He above your approval.

Men  look upon  the  curtain  and  wonder  at  the  mystery it conceals. We all circle it, casting stones or saying prayers to it. Others deny it, and still they circle it. And all the while they peer upon the curtain, thinking behind it is that glimpse of God and that from His ark He stares back.

But no man may approach His throne or even lay eyes on Him. To come before Him with faith is blasphemy, for there is none but Him and you are excluded, unless the king holds out his scepter.

He does not conceal Himself from you behind the curtain, but whispers to your heart to tear the curtain away and to lay eyes on its mystery. He whispers, ‘Destroy  what you find concealed for it is an idol.’ Do not wait until the Last Day to behold the idol of that mirror.

Look upon yourself today and remember all that you have done. Break the idol you have found. You will never unravel His mystery. Is it not enough that He help you unravel your own? ”

Herod said, “If I fail to fulfill my vow to Salome, none will account me trustworthy. I must protect my name and my station. I swore an oath to her in the presence of my wife and ministers. How would you have me keep my dignity if not by fulfilling my vow?”

John offered his neck to the sword, “How will He love him who guards his dignity against Him? The one jealous of his own honor, regards not His.”
And when John was beheaded, Herod said, “If a single sinner finds favor with Him, he may intercede for me. If he is Mordecai at the king’s gate, perhaps Esther will intervene for those who have gone astray.”

Though He will judge me and may reject my cries at His gate, that He cast me out is enough. If He curses me, I will not turn to another  than  Him. His curse will become my remembrance  of Him; His judgment against me and His decree linking me to Him.

There was none so beautiful in the days of King Cyrus as his own daughter. None in the kingdom failed to admire her.

One day, as she was touring  the marketplace, a dervish was stricken by the sight of her. The bread that was his only dinner fell from his hand and into the dust. He marvelled at her beauty such that his appetite meant nothing. Her gorgeous and radiant face blinded him to anything else.

The princess saw this dervish in his tattered robes, covered in dirt, and his mouth agape. She smiled on him as she passed by. When her eyes fell on him, the dervish lost all sense and fainted away as though dead.

For  nine  years he  remained  in  sublime  ecstasy, cherishing the memory of her glance. Like a stray dog, he followed the one who had shown him a single kindness. But this was to him more valuable than a kingdom of gold.

Every night he slept on the street in sight of her palace. During the day, this restless soul exerted himself only to glimpse her face again.

At last, her servants said, “He is a nuisance and a danger to you. Let us kill him.”

But she told them, “No. Bring him to me and I will show him where things stand.”

When the dervish was brought into her presence, he fell to his knees on the ground adoringly. But the princess said, “Why do you do this? Why do you persist after me? There can be nothing between us.”

He answered, “There is nothing left for me. Even if my praise does not befit you, I cannot keep from praising. Even if my love is beneath your contempt, I cannot help but love you. You are the sun and the moon in the heaven of my heart. A hundred suns in their brilliance could not obscure my vision of you since the day you smiled on me.”

She said, “I curse the day I smiled on you. You are a fool. I did not smile for love, but out of pity because you are a pathetic sight.”

The dervish answered, “This is so. But I would have loved you even had you spit on me in contempt. I loved you not for a smile, but that your eyes fell on me at all, whether cursing or loving.”

My Lord, forgive me. I am a halif among the believers. Nothing can blot out my remembrance of You. I am a snake with a broken head and cannot turn.


Author by  Daud Ibn Ibrahim Al Shawni

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